Healing With Some Bumps

My incision is healing well with very little pain now, which is great...no more codeine needed.  Up to Wednesday, I was feeling pretty good...still in pain, but doing some chores around the home and overall feeling like things were slowly on their way back to normal.

Then Thursday morning came...I was stricken with terrible nausea.  Well it started out subtle, progressed into feeling like "morning sickness" and then it just became painful once bedtime hit.  Also, diarrhea hit too.  All night long, I fought the nausea, afraid of the incision pain that may occur if I were to throw up.  I finally gave in late Friday morning (after talking to the nurses, trying to figure out if this is normal) and I felt much better.  After talking to the nurses, it was decided that the best thing to do was to go into the ER, get some fluids, and get an X-Ray to see if I have another obstruction (please, God, no).  X-Rays had some confusing findings, but not an obstruction (thank you, God).  After spending 6 1/2 hours in the ER (most of the time spent waiting to speak to the surgeon about the weird X-Rays) I was on my way home again. 

I am now on anti-nausea meds, which have helped a lot, still dealing with other uncomfortable things, and finding it VERY difficult to eat anything.  I have had more calls into the surgeon to see if symptoms I am having are okay and not a sign of something more serious, and so far they think I am experiencing what some people experience after bowel surgery.  I have lost about 10 pounds so far through this whole ordeal, which is not surprising considering I have probably only had one full day's worth of calories over the course of more than a week.  I am trying so hard to stomach food, but it's a process.  I really feel that once I can do this, I will feel a lot better.

Eben has been with my mom (and a little with Dane's mom) all week during the day and overnight. I truly do not know what I would do if we were already in Michigan when this happened without the support of our parents.  We had him overnight last night for the first time and it went alright.  It is SO hard for me though because I am usually the nurturer...the one who usually knows how to calm him or put him back to sleep...but I can't do that right now...it is left up to Dane.  Dane is handling it well though which I am thankful for.  Eben starts daycare on Monday (wish him luck) and I really hope he doesn't get too sick to go because that will defeat the purpose (after being exposed to the new germs)!

I worry my bond with Eben is weakening, but I keep reminding myself that when I start to feel better, I can strengthen that with him again...it's so hard though. 

Sorry if I shared too many details about what's been going on with me, but I have become pretty open about all of this since I have told so many doctors, nurses, residents, students, etc.  all of the details.  (Oh but I could have told you so much more, haha).  I am trying to keep my spirits high, though it is hard sometimes...I just want things back to normal...