Boy or Girl!?

I am pretty sure everyone who reads this blog already knows the answer to the question above, but I thought I should do a post about it!  So the big ultrasound happened on August 29th and Dane was unable to make it as he was on Wards and super busy.  I decided to not find out at the actual appointment, but instead have the tech put the ultrasound which shows the sex of the baby in an envelope for us to discover later that night.  I also wanted the boys to be involved and take some pictures of the reveal.  In order to do this without any of us knowing before the reveal, I gave my good friend, Kim, the envelope, a box, and two bags of balloons - one with blue and one with pink.  She privately stuffed the box with the appropriate balloons, left them outside of her back door, and I came around and picked up the box after she texted me saying it was done.  So there I was, for about 8 hours with the answer at my fingertips - for a while in an envelope and then I had this large box with colored balloons in it sitting next to me in the car on the drive home, then I shoved it into the basement so I didn't have to look at it anymore!

When Dane got home around 7:30pm, we rushed to a nearby bridge with the box and the boys to FINALLY find out boy or girl.  We placed the box, I stepped back so I could take pictures, and we told Eben to open the box...

...and there were BLUE balloons in there.  Dane immediately started laughing, saying he was excited for another boy.  I took a few pictures and I think I was swearing a little between shots.  Honestly, I didn't take very many pictures at all because I was SO disappointed.  I really thought it was MY turn for a girl.  EVERYONE in Ann Arbor who has had babies in the past year has had girls (at least in my immediate group of friends...which is like 8 girls or so).  Out of those families, we are one of two families who already had the two boys and needed that girl next (the other family had their girl in April).  I. Was. Seriously. Bummed.  Throughout the next few days I went through anger, a little depression, disappointment, and all of those kinds of negative feelings.  Yes, I cried a few times - I felt like I was mourning the loss of a daughter, which I really wanted SO MUCH. 

After a few days passed, I got over it.  With the help of talking about it with friends and family and realizing how blessed we are in every other way, I got over it.  After shopping for this tiny little boy, buying him a bunch of tiny little clothes that he totally doesn't need, I got over it.  It's a BABY - a new human being - who looks to be healthy and of course just as adorable as Eben and Bode.  And he will love me, his Mommy, like crazy.  Just like his big brothers do.  And considering how close in age all three boys will be, they should play quite well together and they will LOVE having each other.  So really, having 3 boys won't be so bad after all...

 

Will we have more children?  Yes, one more, as long as this c-section and recovery goes smoothly and it's safe to have another child.  Will I 'get my girl' on the 4th try?  Quite possibly not, but you better believe I will be doing EVERYTHING the 'books' suggest to do when trying for a girl!!!  (And it is going to drive Dane NUTS, but I think he will follow the rules just to make me happy).  If it IS a girl, she will have 3 older brothers to watch out for her.  If it is another boy - I might go a tad crazy, haha, but I know he will be just as loved as his older 3 brothers.  

So, Baby #3 - we are so very excited for your arrival in January!  We just have to decide on a name now...Mommy and Daddy are totally disagreeing this time around!